First, let me say I am an incredibly flawed human being all
on my own; a student of stupidity; a learner of life lessons; and a mess of
imperfections. And I will probably be all of these things from now until the
day I am six feet below the ground. I imagine you are too. I would think that
you probably always will be the same as I am in that regard. And, while I might
not have it all figured out just yet, I do want to share one thing with you, whoever is reading this, right now: The
reason behind just a little of my madness.
The Reason
Before I started to blog, there were many times in my life I
felt alone, confused, scared, led astray and lost. Then, something magical
happened: I began blogging about my experiences, and what I found out were that
there was entire world full of people who felt just like me. That realization
was so healing, so empowering and so inspiring that it glued back some of the
very broken pieces of my heart; it wove together some of the unraveled tapestry
of my soul. So…why do I blog now? I don’t blog for me, not anymore, I blog for
the people who once were me; the people who haven’t yet found their inner
voice. The people who can’t, or won’t share it…at least not yet.
Off Kilter, Off
Center and Spinning
Life has a funny way of throwing us all curve balls from
time to time, and these curve balls can knock us off center; make us behave out
of character and give license to temporary moments of insanity. However, it’s
how we bounce back that defines us. And, because I was serious about making
some changes in my life, I made a conscious choice to bounce back.
Finding a Purpose and
Defining It
Once I completed my Project Manifest list, I felt a weight
lift off of my shoulders. I knew exactly what I wanted to do with my life,
exactly what my purpose was, and, at the same time, after I made that list, it
all began falling into place. And, I’m excited to see what the next step are as
I move ever, constantly forward; as I push myself toward something bigger than
yesterday.
On the Darker Side
I have a tendency, as do most writers and artists of our age
and ages past, to feel things quite deeply and profoundly. And, because it is
my nature to analyze and overanalyze just about everything I come across, I can
also think myself into some rather dark places. I will place blame, I will seek
fault in others. I will become a pain in the proverbial tail, and can
potentially drive the people closet to me crazy. And then, all of a sudden,
this last Saturday, I let it all go. I found grace.
And that Was Always
the Answer
You see, grace is, has been and always will be the answer. I
don’t need to cut people out and cut them off to live my life. Because, the
truth is, my life is mine, and I’m going to live it as happily and joyfully as
possible. And, my hope is that, in the process, I can spread a little bit of
that around. I want to be the reason you smile, never the reason you frown,
worry or feel badly. But, at the same time, I am centered enough to know that
my purpose, my reason for being here is to create something that will last;
craft a legacy I can be proud of. So, I fixed my eyes upward. Not on the past,
not centered in the present, not even hopeful for the future, but up. And the
reason I fixed them up, is because that is exactly the direction I want to go.
And Now For Something
Completely Different…
Stay tuned, because tomorrow, I am going to reveal something
about Project Complete that is a huge part of my master plan for all of my
projects. And this is something only two people in the entire world know right
now. In fact, not even my family knows what the master plan is, but I promise
you that it will be a game changer in the best possible way.
But in order to find that truth; have that epiphany, I had
to be knocked so far off of my course and outside of myself to find my center.
And, as I read stories from most other people who have accomplished great
things with their lives, so did they. Maybe that means something, maybe it’s
all interconnected. Maybe everything really does happen for a reason, and, when
that reason becomes clear, perhaps it’s destined to blow us all away. I know
that it did for me. And it made me realize some universal truths about myself,
and the world around me. So, for tonight, I give you this song, a hope for
tomorrow and peace in today.
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