Every year…I do this year in review thing. But this year, I
have been putting it off….procrastinating. I really didn’t want to do it. At
all. But….I have to. It is, after all, sort of my “thing”, so at a little after
6pm on New Year’s Eve, I maintain my commitment. I sat down and I started
writing.
Why?
I guess, because that’s just what I do.
For lack of a better word, 2014 has sucked. In massive,
massive ways. It has been the most hellish, rollercoaster of a year that I have
had since 2012 – although 2012 sucked indubitably more on some levels.
Without getting too far into it, I guess you could say that
this year was all about loss…something I spoke about on Christmas Eve.
This year, I (we) lost one of our best friends to a stroke.
I miss him every day. He was the person I could talk to about anything and
everything. He was the most loving, kind person I have ever known. However, in
his passing, he still left us all Easter eggs…gifts. He gave me other loving,
kind, wonderful people to fill in the gaping hole he left behind. Because he
knew better than to leave us alone. Any of us. Because I know I am not the only
one he left this incredible gift to. There were many people I connected with,
through his passing, that shared a piece of his heart, and who share a piece of
his soul.
You know who you are.
And I am grateful for you.
And while losing one of my best friends still weighs heavy
on my heart, and while I have watched people exit our lives and go their
separate ways this year and in several years prior; while I try and cope with
several other things that are, for all intents and purposes, difficult at best,
I embrace one thing, one shining light in the precipice of the dark: Hope.
The other day, I took this test, entitled “What Four Letter
Word Defines You?” While I anticipated getting a word that began with the
letter “F”, my result was actually this:
HOPE
Even in the toughest of times, you believe deep down that everything is will turn out for good. You understand that keeping your head up can get you through anything. So you tend always conquer and win in everything.
And I guess it’s true. Even though there are days that seem
as if they will never end, circumstances that seem as though they will never
let up, I have that one, tiny, small thing in me: Hope. And it’s the one thing
that leaves me standing.
The one small thing I wish for all of you as well.
I can proclaim whatever I want to this New Year’s Eve. So
can you. We can all say that 2015 will be “my year”, “our year”….or whatever….but
the truth is, all we can really do is hope.
But, the other thing we can do is turn that hope into something
tangible.
We can hope for fewer assholes in our lives. We can hope for
a better life. We can hope for more opportunities. We can also take action to eliminate,
create and thrive. But, no matter what we do, or what we don’t, it all starts
with one, simple four letter world: Hope. The truth is, you can't really get anywhere unless you have it. Hope fuels drive, ambition and change. It's the one thing that has the most power, but begins as the most fleeting of thoughts, yet is also the one thing that topples armies, mountains and even the most dastardly of villains. Hope. It's the most powerful thing we have, when we channel it properly.
So here is to 2015. Here is to hope.
Sincerely,
Miss Adventures
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